Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Introduction
I'm a 36 year old woman who was molested by my step father from ages 2 to 14. I've lived outside of the abuse for more than half of my life. I'm ready to reclaim my life!
That may sound silly "RECLAIM MY LIFE" but it's my reality today.
I've spent most of my adult life trying to escape my past. I even left USA and moved to my fathers country of Lebanon to leave everything behind.
I'm back in USA since 2006 because of the conflict. Since I've returned the emotions returned. I'm tired of isolating myself, feeling hopeless and scared of who will discover my truth, or who I may run into from my past. I've felt so alone in my head for way to long. I know there are others who's reality is worse than mine. So I'm ready to share "EVERYTHING".
Why would I want to share my life with strangers online? Because I need to. I need to free myself from this. My step-father was put in prison for 6 years. However that didn’t erase all the abuse I lived under this man. Sexual, physical, mental and emotional.
I'm praying that each door I unlock to share will free me from the shame I live with.
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I am glad that you are able to share your feelings and thoughts and emotions like this. I wholeheartedly agree that sharing our fears and hopelessness with others helps ourselves and those that we share with, helping them feel a little less alone. I'm glad I found your blog.
ReplyDeleteThank you Tina! It's been something I've been struggling to share for a long time. I finally realized I was the one making it a struggle. I know I'm not alone, and If just 1 person were to find comfort or were to reach out to me for help...It would be nothing less that a blessing.
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